November 2008?? i totally gave up on life (blogging) didn't i?

So yeah, I went through that fad of blogging crap... totally lost interest as I do so many other things fairly quickly.
I've had some shit going down that has made me seriously take a step back. I've spent a lot of time to myself and, beforehand, always thought i was happy in my own company. This hasn't changed but I realise I'll do anything to distract from the boredom that being kinda lonely brings.

Gaming.. something I truly love and enjoy doing. Now when a game grabs you it's immense.. you want to play that extra mission, collect the next treasure, see how the next chapter unfolds. I had the bug with Final Fantasy XIII, as I knew I would being a bit of a fanboy. A fanboy that owns all of the titles available but has never completed one fully... until now!! And you want the reason? Trophies!!

Yes.. when you've nothing better to do with your time, or have no-one close to hang out with, I have found myself to be a trophy whore. Be it competition with friends or just the need to get that next level, the higher percentage.. i've resorted to it. I only ask myself why, after a couple of hours religious play, I actually bothered.
I gain nothing from it, it whiles away the hours sure.. but I don't end up with any real satisfaction out of it.

Completing a game i've truly enjoyed playing, and the whole experience that goes with achieving that, gives me satisfaction. Assassin's Creed II, Uncharted's 1 & 2, Batman, Heavy Rain and now FFXIII to name the most recent. Each time the end credits rolled I felt kind of smug with how i'd done and happy of the effort i'd put in.

Now Heavy Rain was great to complete as it was like a movie! BUT... I found completing it the 2nd time on my own PS3, purely for the trophies, to be a real slog. Skipping the cutscenes.. playing at easiest difficulty just to speed up the hours needed to choose and ending and hear the acute 'ping!' noise as each trophy scored.

Since then it's been easy whoring with Dynasty Warriors 6 Empires, Sega Superstars Racing, Lego Indy 2, Dirt 2 and even Fifa09. Dirt 2, being honest, has totally impressed me and has had many hours ploughed into it for the excitement the game brings rather than the 'ping!' But Fifa09!?! C'mon.. I'm a staunch Pro Evo fanboy but the ease these trophies dropped into my lap I couldn't say no.. and at £2.98 a copy I'd have to be crazy not to buy it just for that reason alone!

I don't think I can really sum anything up of all the drivel i've just written. I get bored watching TV, bored of reading and even bored of playing games now too. I used to listen listen to music for hours and totally lose myself, but songs make you think about things, and when you're on your own for a lengthy period all you do is think about things so that doesn't help either.
It's this boredom that leads me to write this.. i'm sat here with nothing better to do.

On the bright side I may have a new job this time next week.. I'll blog all about my last one someday. The memoirs of a independant manager working for a commercial game selling dictatorship.. Lol.

Bitchin!